I messed up yesterday.
Big time...I literally exploded.
I think I've been holding in resentment and anger subconsiously for a long time.
I acted in an unloving, unlikeable way, I was cruel and pushed and pushed and pushed.
And I liked it....I enjoyed the rush I got off of it.
And then I thought about what I did.
I didn't like myself so much anymore.
In fact, I was ashamed of myself.
I acted in a manner so unlike anything I thought I was.
I'm crying out to God and asking for help.
I'm going to seek some tools and skills to help me deal with this.
But I am broken.
I am sad.
I am feeling small and unloveable.
I'm asking for prayer.
I need to seek GOD in this, He is the only help for me in this situation.
Help Me GOD! HELP ME! Help my unbelief!