Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Negativity Be Gone

I've been feeling rather negative recently.

It's not huge or anything but in the background of my mind there is this little cynical voice telling me the Opposite of what I should be thinking.

It's really getting old.

So I am going to make a conscious effort to focus more on Positives than Negatives. To take that little cynic in my mind and make it eat JOY! Cynicism hates JOY. I need to find the Happy in the moment not just the sad. I need to find the Peace when I may just be feeling MAD. I need to find the Contentment in what I have and the Determination to make life better than I thought it could be.

I'm going through some changes at work, not bad changes but change is hard. I need to embrace the change...isn't that what changing my thinking is all about? I need to take the bull by the horns and embrace the new, deal with the trouble and make it all work.

And I need to get back to blogging about what I am feeling and how I am changing my thinking. I need to get the feelings out and not bottle them up. So here's to Embracing the POSITIVE

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

A Big Ol Bad Attitude

I had a pity party last night.

I was frustrated and feeling upset.

I ate Ice Cream for dinner and didn't cook...just reheated things for the kids.

I DID clean the kitchen.

I DID get most of the laundry done and put away.

I didn't feel like I accomplished anything.

I didn't do it with joy

I just did it.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

Whoa...can we stop this crazy life I'm living?


I'm feeling like things are spinning all topsy turvy...life is moving rapidly around and I feel like sometimes I am standing still. Then I get moving again and I can't seem to be able to catch up. It's kinda like the gun scenes in old western movies...you know where people walk in slow motion and then the camera focuses on the hands and it's just entirely too long and then the shootout starts and it's over in like 3 seconds. So in honor of a western movie here is the Jonathan household version of the Good, the Bad and the Ugly..

I can honestly say that I started making good progress in January. I was in the Zone. I was cleaning the kitchen every night and working at getting the living room into decent semblence every night. The kids were on top of their stuff and it was working...it really was. I was getting ready to set goal number 3 and I was even working out every night.


Jaron comes down with the Stomach Flu...at 12:30 at night. SO I get roughly 3 hours of sleep and I get to clean up VOMIT...my favorite. This starts the cycle of mom being super tired and not feeling good at all. I need a minimum of 5 hours to feel good and I wasn't getting that. I stopped caring and I stopped doing my chores simply because I couldn't adequately function. I didn't work out because when your super tired exercise ceases to be helpful its more like torture. Then I come down with the stomach flu...and cease to function at all...and now Janea has it and is now just starting to feel better.

which turns into...


We're back to almost where we were when we started this process. The living room is trashed, the kitchen overflowing with dishes and the laundry starting to get out of control. Well, the Ugly is leaving. I'm taking charge, getting things back into shape...I have the kitchen counters cleaned and the sink clear. The laundry is getting done, the bathroom is getting cleaned up. Dinner is cooking and the livingroom will be cleaned before I go to bed.

I hate getting sick and I hate when the kids are sick. It makes for long days and nights. Looking forward to getting the house back to not looking like there are sick people afoot.