The Man, The Sickness and Being Angry

So the man is Sick...I mean needing an antibotic sick and I am mad at him.

That sounds petty and terrible but it's the truth. I am upset with him for being sick. He didn't plan on getting sick, he's not faking...we went to the doctor to get him more powerful medicines and such, but I'm still very upset with him.

I think it's because there is never an opportunity for me to be sick. When I am sick I still have to take care of the kids, the house, life and all. When he's sick he lays in bed all day and complains about feeling terrible. So maybe I am more jealous than angry...or maybe I just need to get over it all.

I don't know...but I'm tired and have a headache right now, so I'm really feeling it.

A Big Ol Bad Attitude

I had a pity party last night.

I was frustrated and feeling upset.

I ate Ice Cream for dinner and didn't cook...just reheated things for the kids.

I DID clean the kitchen.

I DID get most of the laundry done and put away.

I didn't feel like I accomplished anything.

I didn't do it with joy

I just did it.

Sigh

My kitchen needs to be cleaned tonight...so I can meet my goal....

I DON't WANT TO CLEAN It.

I have a headache, a backache, it's cold, it's yucky, I'm tired.

It's been a long day and Jaron has been very crabby and upset over something that I can't fix.

The weather is bleak and dreary and we have another storm coming and I am not sure about school tomorrow and the kiddos are off again and it's been a long day and why did I set this goal???
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AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Okay, I'm done whining,....I'm off to the kitchen to work on my goal. I have to do this...it's going to make me a better person in the long run....it's just hard.